Hello readers , today had PDS , pretty much the most fun PDS among all the trainings . hmph , so like we did until formation 5 i think . i could finally spin not twirl . Hahs . Gerekq happy dokq . Hahs . then formation 6 we have like tossing the riffle to each other . Yeah i feel damn guilty about it becos , i partner with Senior Nisa , then the riffle kenerh her kaki banyak kali then she like cnt move . I feel damn guilty sia . I kept saying sorry she say nevermind tetap feel guilty siol . Sorry yeah Senior . Then after that went to change then went to buy drinks after PDS , then went to tingkat 30 and meet Shasha to get my camera then she brought R . R wanted to see me . Hmph , dah lah ngah bad mood . Hmph , dah meet R talk talk . Then we cabot . hahs , i went home . bathed and sat at the computer waiting for people to chat with me . Boring . Later then chat with someone . hahs , wth ? weird girl and you knw it . Hmmmm , then i'm now sitting chatting with Shasha , about stupid lovelife . I've been crying frm just now , just to remember things about the people i used to love . and it sucks crying over you , as it leads to nothing instead it leads to more suffering .

To someone : You text me , whts the point of shedding tears over me ? You dont get it . I dont wanna contact you for reasons . You dont knw how i feel . everytime you appear to talk to me or something all the memories I used to have start running back to my mind . Rewinding rewinding , all about you . You dont get it dont you , you keep putting me in wrong when your the one who said goodbye . Yeah you'd say memories happy times , but do this memories bring me the sweet words you used to say , happy moments or just heartaches that now I know I'd never have you with me ever . You'd say we can still be friends but its hard being friends after all this its hard to talk to you , as everytime i hear your voice , see your mesages I breakdown in tears . I cant have anything to do with you , it'll just keep me in pain . But you don't get it , you always think negatively . Haish , forget it kay , forget me , forget us , forget everything about me and you . Forget the memories , forget the late night phone calls , forget the sweet messages , forget the love we used to had . No point thinking over it . I've given up on you aye . You win . happy ?

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